That is a good word to describe how I feel lately.
Busy at home. Busy at work. Busy...Busy...Busy. Really, no different then anyone else in the world, but right now just seems like the perfect storm of all things busy.
The house is coming along
fantastically! Everyday, they do more...which is marvelous. This usually requires a trip out there after work though to see the progress. And that takes time. Which needs to be coordinated with Danny's "after school" nap. Which is not always predictable. Especially with his teeth. The damn teeth.
Oy Vey! It's a tap dance really.
Right now, he is getting spoiled by eating cold fruit. A LOT. Which does not make giving him "regular" food easy (or changing diapers
pleasant). He is trying table food though. Tonight he had some mashed
potatoes (loved them) and over the weekend he had some real mac n' cheese, and a bit of scrambled egg. Oh, and some watermelon that scared the crap out of me on when I changed his diaper! Not what I was expecting to see. At his 9-month appointment on June 27
th, our doctor said it was time to give him table food. To start
experimenting. What a treat. His face is great. I really enjoy watching him try something new.
Cheerios are a big hit. He dabbles in American cheese. But he really seems to enjoy watermelon. My Dad loves watermelon and so does Dave's Mom, so we may have a junkie on our hands.
At his appointment he was in the 50
th percentile for weight, which I think shocked everyone (including his doctor) because we always call him Sir Chub A Lot. He was 90
th percentile for height, so the doc said his height/weight ratio was great. He took his shot like a champ. I mean, he really does take after me in that department. One of the few good traits I passed on to him.
In our spare time, we are picking out plumbing. Sinks and Faucets. So many decisions. Plus, I'm married to someone, God love him, who is not decisive at making decisions. Maybe I'm too flexible. I don't know. But picking faucets for the kitchen sink and bar sink, well, I'm embarrassed to say how long it took. I'll just sum it up with...FOREVER.
I love the sink we picked though. It's spectacular! It was love at first sight for me. I'll add a picture.
Over the weekend we made some progress in the granite department. I *think* we may have found our kitchen counter. Before we can make that decision though...we need to look at cabinets, and try to tie everything in together.
And work. Let me give you the up shot about work. It's fantastic. I love my job. I really do. But I feel like I'm so busy right now, and since I don't have the time in the evenings to supplement my workday, I feel like nothing is getting 100% of my time, and that is stressful. I pride myself in my job, but at the end of the day, with all that I have going on, I just have to check it at the door. That is hard and really does give me anxiety.
All of these wonderful things all at once. Danny is number one, and then mix the rest in with the moving, building, and working and I feel like I'm not giving 100% to anything.
I think about friends all the time. Play lots of phone tag. Haven't read the book for book club that is tomorrow night because I never made it the library on time to pick up the book! And I heard it was good, so when it comes in (for the second time), I'll pick it up and read it.
I think about the thank you notes I haven't sent (Katie for the picture frame and having us for a cook out, Noreen for having us for dinner and giving us some toys and books, Michael for letting my Father In Law park in your driveway during the Senior
PGA Open, and I'm sure there's more).
I haven't sent birthday cards, or anniversary cards (Happy 1st Anniversary Kristy! I thought of you yesterday!), or even hello, I'm thinking about you and your pregnancy to Kimmy, Kristy, and
Bethy. Three of my cousins due to have babies in August, September and October.
Not to mention that Jodi & Mark had a healthy baby boy on Saturday, June 27
th! His name is Nicholas Alexander and he weighed in at 7lbs 12 oz. What a blessing! He is 9-months TO THE DAY from Danny, and I am thrilled that they will be classmates together in
Kirtland. How special to have cousins in class together. He is a gorgeous addition to their family! Above all else, we are grateful that he arrived safe and sound, and that Momma is doing fantastic too.
What it comes down to though, is that I have a full life. I am lucky to have so much, and I need to remember that. But making time for my friends is very important to me, and it hurts that I haven't. So I am going to work on that.
This is July. So in addition to all of the above, I am sad.
July is a hard month for me. July puts me in rewind. And that makes my heart ache. So I fade in and out. I try to stop myself with the "2-years ago today..." thoughts in terms of what was going with my pregnancy. But I can't help it. I'm not sure I ever will. And that's
ok too. Because really, 2-years ago we were so happy to have gotten the wonderful news that our
amnio came back perfect and that we had a healthy baby girl after such a scary ultrasound. And we were celebrating. As hard as it hurts, I always think about all the love we have for Angela. And that is nothing to be sad about.
This year, we are going to celebrate Angela's birthday by taking Danny to the Zoo. His first time there. My first time there in years. It will be a nice day day together as a family. Cleveland Weather gods, please give us a beautiful day.
Yesterday, we were playing with Danny on the grass...and he was just grabbing at the sky and smiling. I said to Dave that Angela was playing tricks on him, and he agreed. I mean, truly, his face was angelic and he was smiling so big and sweetly, and trying to grab something...but nothing was there. Those are the moments I know she is with us.