Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Babies...Babies...Babies...

The past few weeks have been a flurry of good news. Two of my cousins have had babies. Welcome to the world Abigail Rose and Ryker Joseph. We are so happy that you have joined our goofy family. This year, there will be four, yes I said 4 babies, under the age of 6-months at the Annual Cousin Christmas Party. What a blessing.

Several of my friends are due to have babies as well. Jen, my coworker, at this point, I am just waiting for the call. Every day I pull in and I'm looking to find her car. She is due in less then two-weeks. I can hardly stand it. She is quite possibly the cutest pregnant person I have ever met.

Karen, well, she is equally adorable and is due to have her Christmas miracle...well, on Christmas. Karen is a friend that I met online after we lost Angela. Coincidentally, she lives in Cleveland, and we work for the same company. Karen had been pregnant with "hyphen", but miscarried. She was due to have a baby on July 17, 2007. Same day as Angela's birthday. Our friendship was meant to be. Last year, Karen lost another pregnancy right around Christmas. This year, she is due to have a little girl on Christmas. That's why she is a Christmas miracle.

Gretchen is due with baby number two in April. She is such a dear friend of mine, there are just no words to describe the happiness I felt when I found out her good news.

Megan just announced she is due to have a baby in June. How awesome to have two in two!

And I have a secret friend out there who is also due....but I don't know when. She's still a secret.

All of these babies. All of these blessings. There is nothing that brings a bigger smile to my face then the announcement of a new pregnancy. Honestly, I usually cry because I am just so over joyed with happiness for my friend and their husband.

So here I have this growing list of friends and babies to pray for. Please keep them all in your thoughts for safe and healthy pregnancies, deliveries, and a lifetime of good health and happiness. Nothing has become more important to me that this.

And of course, people ask me CONSTANTLY about our next little one. We definitely plan to expand our family. Just not yet. Let me move into our new place for a while...and settle...before I shake it all up again!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Melting Down and Warming Up

Danny is developing quite a personality. It seems like a switch was flipped as soon as he learned how to walk. Now, if you pick him up against his wishes, he thrashes until I set him down again. Usually this occurs when I'm removing him from the bathroom (loves to lift the toiletseat), or when I catch him as he is running right past the stairs to the basement. The super steep stairs that don't have a gate. This also happens a lot when we're out at the house. Sometimes I can let him walk around, other times, I can't because of the debris lying on the floor.

I'm sure my future neighbors think I'm a great mom while they watch me throw him under my arm, like I'm carrying a rolled up carpet, and walk him down the driveway. A driveway he would like to walk down himself, but can't yet because it's too steep, and he tips forward. So I figure the under the arm is better then a trip to the ER.

There are so many things I'm learning. It's like a continuous course in patience. Meal times are getting better. I've learned that by only putting one thing down at a time, I have better chances of him eating. If I really want him to eat the chicken, I need to start there...and that's when I have the most success. Other times, he'll be eating right along, and then decide he's done with that menu item and just spit it of his mouth. Visualize mashed potatoes being oozed out. He has the ability to make that face and discard food that way with just about everything.

He eats a lot of cut up tomatoes, pears, applesauce, goldfish, cheerios, and now one prune a day. I'm sure an explanation for the prunes isn't required. He is a huge milk drinker. To the point that sometimes I have to "trick" him, and give him half milk and half water. It might sound mean to anyone else, but warmed up, it does the trick! If it were up to Danny, he would drink about 64-ounces of milk a day. And that ladies and gentleman, contributed to the prunes!

So, it's milk or water, but no juice. We tried to slip him some apple juice a few weeks ago when we were having "issues", but you would have thought he was drinking battery acid. So even though I'm of the frame of mind that juice is not necessary because it's full of sugar and will rot his teeth, he won't drink it anyway.

I've enjoyed one full out temper tantrum. It occurred on Monday. I was taking him to the park and carried him upstairs (rolled up carpet style) with an empty sippy cup. He was freaking out for the sippy cup, and tried to drink it...even though it was empty. So, I took it from him to put water in the cup, and holy $hit, did all hell break loose! He was all but apoplectic! I had to lay him down on the tile kitchen floor because I was afraid he was going to give himself a concussion. I mean this kid was screaming and crying and giant tears! The biggest, saddest tears I've ever seen. I was kind of in awe by the display. Then grateful I was at home and not in public. Then really grateful only I was home. This was a scene meant for Jerry Springer...not Susie Shafer. I am very much aware that this is just a taste of what's to come.

With all of that said (or written), the absolutely most frustrating meltdown is when Danny is so tired and is crying to be held , so I pick him up, and then he thrashes and cries to get out of my arms...only to get more hysterical once I set him down, so then I pick him up again. Lather, Rinse and Repeat. In these moments, I thank God for my patience, because before Danny, I would not have been able to handle this gracefully. Although, I'm not sure how graceful I handle it now. Maybe the grace is that we're all still in one piece?

With all of the above, I must add some positive highlights.

He loves music. He watched an Elmo sing along last week, and danced and bopped around, and clapped his hands, and was so excited. I about melted. I was almost more fascinated with the fact that the DVD looked like it was filmed in the 70's. Crazy.

He has learned to give kisses. Sometimes this is an all out open mouth wet kiss...and other times it's a lean forwad and bop his face towards yours. Kisses are the best though. Until it turns in to a wet kiss and biting of the nose. Watch out for this. I sometimes get so caught up in the warm and fuzzy of the kiss, that before I know it, he's teething on my nose.

And last, I will sign off with another heart warmer. Danny loves his walks in the red car. Most of the time, Dave and I are holding hands, and I'm pushing Danny. Well, a couple of weeks ago, Danny saw us holding hands...and immediately lifted his hand up to Dave's to hold while walking. So, I'm pushing the car, and Danny and Dave are holding hands. Danny just looks at Dave the whole time. And of course, I'm trying not to cry because it's just the sweetest thing I've ever seen.

This is what gives me the patience during the meltdown.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Some New Pics of Danny

It's been a while since I've posted a few of Danny. This morning he woke up with bed head the resembled a Rooster/Mohawk.

From Danny October 2009


From Danny October 2009


From Danny October 2009

Saturday, October 17, 2009

That's Life

We have been busy the last few weekends and during the week. Danny, the house, work, weekends, birthdays, and more. I keep thinking everything will slow down...but it doesn't. And our lives are no different then everyone elses.

Danny is so busy. He is not a cuddler. Unless he's really sick...and I mean like really sick. And being a limp noodle doesn't count. He is always on the go. No relaxing for him. No snuggle time in the morning when he wakes up. No pause during the day to just chill and relax with me or Dave and watch a cartoon. Nothing. He'll sit for about two seconds. Then he'll want to get down, then back up, then down, back up...and the game of playing continues. And he doesn't like when you're out of his site. This makes trying to get some chores done difficult.

This week he transferred from the infant nursery to the toddler nursery. He is getting to be such a big boy! They said that he LOVES being in the gym and just runs around. Next week it will be full time. This week, it was just a few hours a day. We are both sad to see him leave the girls in the infant room. He loves them and so do we. We are hoping we have as good of luck in the next room.

Not a super exciting post today. We're all a little tired around here getting over colds and coughs. Ugh.

Happy Fall!

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Sweet Rosemary

My Aunt Rosemary passed away on Saturday, September 26th. This has been a deep sadness. She was a wonderful woman, and my heart aches. But today I would like to share a poem that my niece Sarah Sherman wrote. Sarah is a talented writer, and I was blown away by the beauty and tenderness she captured with her words. Without further adieu,

Sweet Rosemary

Some people deal with death, by throwing their hearts at walls
Sobbing through the pain, laughing away the sorrow
Or by becoming a hollow shell of their former selves

By trying to forget the memories shared, but not lost
Some remember and don't let go
By building walls and letting no one else inside their boundaries, their misery...
By surrounding themselves in joy, By wearing black
Or by fighting off paper tigers, threatening, but harmless

To the stranger of this loss we now share
These mechanisms of coping seem weak and dangerous

But the only way to heal is to know and feel all of our pain
Letting it rush into our bodies, weak from the struggle
Of countless times we've seen her in agony, unable to do anything about it
And we tell the pain to do its worst
So we can begin to face our life somehow without
the lost wife, mother, sister, aunt and friend... Sweet Rosemary

In beginning to slowly and painfully heal
By realizing that her life is not over and will never be forgotten,
Captured in the tears of her sisters,
Or in the laughter of the stories her friends share,
By the twinkle in her husband's eyes when he sees
the smiles her children wear that radiate.... Sweet Rosemary

By the way her mother and father meet her in the sky
And hold her saying, "Welcome home."
And we know this is why her grandchildren look to the heavens
And swear they just they just saw their grandmother looking back

By being imprinted in the sweet memories of everyone here
She will live on until we see her smiling face again
Her body cradled in the glittering, soft clouds
Shining in triumph from a life well lived, well loved, and well served
In the heavens we will smile when we see her arms held wide open for us
Not soon, but in time

And we will embrace her and say
Sweet Rosemary...


Saturday, September 26, 2009
Sarah Sherman

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Such a Great Weekend

We had such a busy weekend! So much fun.

Friday night...Olive Garden "Never Ending Pasta Bowl". Seriously? How would this NOT be the best way to kick off the weekend? The Olive Garden might be my most favorie restraunt on Earth. Always has been. Always will be. YUMMY.

Saturday, we ran some errands for the house in the morning. Then I took Danny up to the North Chagrin Reservation for Monarch Madness. What a fun time. Jodi and kids joined us, and the kids had a ball. Danny touched a butterfly and Noelle and Noah put them on their noses! It was so fun to watch Danny's little face react to everything. We enjoyed some music and walked around looking for frogs and turtles. And we found some!



Saturday evening, we went to the Corn Festival in Willoughby Hills. I wish we had gone up there a little earlier to see more of the festivities...but none the less, we had a great time. Danny sat on the edge of his seat. He loves crowds. He is so busy looking at everyone and everything. A firework went off signaling that fireworks would start soon, and he didn't even flintch. Meanwhile, I jumped about 10-feet in the air. We headed home shortly before the fireworks started. Although he did great with one boom, I wasn't going to jinx it.



Sunday, we started the day off with the annual Walk To Remember. This year was another big hit! We had lots of family to join us, and the kids had a good time (I think). It's amazing how far we've come in the three years we've done the walk. In 2007, our loss was very new, and participating in the walk gave me hope that we would be one of the couples someday remembering our loss, while walking with a little one. In 2008, I was 9-months pregnant. Danny was born less then 2-weeks later. And this year, Danny was with us. He was spoiled by his Aunts, Cousins and Grandmas who took turns carrying him for the one-mile walk. He fell asleep on the twins. So sweet.




After the walk, we went to visit my Aunt Rosie at the Cleveland Clinic. I am hoping that seeing Danny brought her a little bit of joy. She is amazing. Such an unbreakable spirit. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers as she battles cancer.

Monday, September 7, 2009

All About the Devil in Disguise

Wow. Where is the time going? Danny had a long week last week. He had a case of some belly bug that appears to have taken a toll on him and a few of his "classmates" in day-care. Hopefully, whatever virus they had has said good-bye to the infant room.

His little bootie has never been so red and sore. And I think it may have been harder on me then on him. He is a champ when it comes to falling down, knocking his head, getting his shots, etc. But this was a doozie. And his pain made him shake which in turn made me cry. I can only hope (sigh) that a bad diaper rash/belly bug is the worst of it.

Speaking of his bootie...we are seeing it more and more lately! He has a tendency to show it off when he should be laying down to have his diaper changed. Ahh...the diaper changing routine. I have now learned to master the art of putting a diaper on a standing child that looks like he is being frisked! He puts his hands on the wall, and I have to somehow manage to keep him from falling off the table, while keeping an arm around his waist for balance, and then using my third arm to put the diaper on. Wow. I actually break out in a sweat sometimes! (guess I'm out of shape!). Last week, this was extra challenging as he had two different types of bootie creams that needed to be applied!

Danny does not stay still....EVER! I was out of town for part of the weekend, and David would keep me in the loop by sending a few pictures to my phone...he was always on the go! When I got home on Sunday night at 7:00pm...Dave said "he's yours!". And he was. And I ate him up...after he got a bath. Then we did the stair routine. We try to burn some energy with him...so we let him climb the stairs a few times a day...in a row...to tire him out. He goes up...then we start all over again.

And he's loud. He talks...A LOT. Not much unlike his mom. I just hope he never has Ms. Daily for third grade. If so, he'll have lots of check marks after his name....

Stacking cups are a big hit. He loves to clank them together. His grandma gives him metal measuring cups...and boy does he have a blast with that. And spatulas. And spoons. And he's fearless. He goes after Freddy (our 120 pound dog) constantly. He chases him. Freddy is only interested in Danny when he's in the high chair and throwing food over the side. Otherwise, Danny just annoys Freddy. And because Fred is almost 10, we are aware that Danny might REALLY annoy Freddy, so we stay right on top of that. Otherwise...Danny is off like a dog after a rabbit.

Food. We are trying to figure out this food thing. For being a chub-a-lub, he really doesn't enjoy meal times. He will eat a few bites of something, and then the game is to spit it out. Frozen cut up bananas are always a hit though. Maybe he really is a monkey? I need to look up the book by Seinfeld's wife...that has creative ways to feed kids healthy foods. I don't think Cheerio's and Puffs are going to give him everything he needs.

We are working on cutting the pacifier out. We went cold turkey a few weeks ago, no problem. We had a mild set back when he was sick, but we are back to no pacifier. The goal is to wean him off prior to his first birthday...which is in 20-days!!!

My little man is going to be ONE in less then three weeks! What an amazing year it has been. We are having so much fun and still enjoying all of it (or at least 99.999999999999%).

I will try to add some pictures soon. He is growing so fast, and his hair is curling in the back. He still only has two teeth, but his uppers are starting to push through. And he is so close to walking. He will stand there like King $hit, smile, then take a few steps and fall. Thank goodness for diapers!